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for the people of the world to do something. for all the world to be right and for all mankind to be saved and for u to control us. sometimes i wish and pray that God wud have nvr given us freewill and that we wud be robots controlled by Him. being a human is tuff...being a christian is tuffer.

stop making myself look like a hypocrite. doing things that counter what i believe in or make me look like a fake

fell and still falling

the main problem is that i make no effort and plan on not making one to try and re connect with the spiritual side. its like i'm just acting a christian and not being one. it is hard...it all started like this.

a few months ago i was like the craziest jesus freak ever with my group of jesus freaks and stuff. we wud praise like crazy, go to prayer meetings and alll that. like our lives 24/7 was God God God. and then i dont remember how specifically but me and a buddy (ill call him ken) started to slowly but surely slip away from this phase which turns out was just that...a phase. we knew it too. we would always say "hey man the devil is kickin our asses to the ground right now" and stuff like that. and we tried we really did to stay up and not get kicked down. but lookin at me now ive been kicked to the fullest kickin ever. im sooooo low. i do giv props to the devil for doing a great job but fuck u nigga.

me and ken had a conversation once. we were talking about drinkin etc etc. and we were talkin about some of the jesus freaks and how we couldnt ever see them drinking and stuff like that. but what we did say was......that if they did fall meaning drink or "sin" then that only meant that he or she was gonna be something great in the kingdom of God and the only reason that satan tried so hard to make them fall was because theywould be a big oppstacle for satan to face. thats why satan used all the might he had to try and drop that person...make sense?


We were going to be something great in the army of god and we would have SURELY defeated satan without breaking a sweat. but one by one satan took us down to weaken the army because we played such a vital and impactful role. so if you do fall or see someone fall know this....you are a strong person that is why you fell....but also now you must get back up and fight your battle against motha fucka satan and give him that one more obstacle to face...which is me and you.

hope this made sense.
Peace and love

now now on 8/5/10

friendships be not renewed but fixed to be better.

come back to me and let me want you.

be good in college

grades in college while doing what i do

year one

hope all goes well at ucr my first year.

be somebody.

get new friends and re mend past friendships

keep it real

get a car

get some tables

stay healthy...get buff

IHOPU

ive been feeling like i should really go here.
pray that i like the campus. i plan on going to visit Kansas city to see ihop. and if in the end i do go here i pray that i wont be tempted because i feel like satan will work hardest here to try and bring us followers of Christ down and this will be the perfect to hinder us with temptations. pray that i get in first of all and then just truly explode for jesus. let me like this place and let me not deal with it but take it and use it for my and the worlds benefit. i hope everything works out. Lead me Oh Lord.

post retreat prayers

Dear God,
I pray that this doesn't go away but that it stays forever until you come. be with everyone as we are suffering from post retreat syndromes and wants to go back and not go to school. thank you for the fellowships you have created in the past present and the ones you will create. thanx for my lil bro's and sis's and that ill always know my friends until the very end. please let us never break apart and that we will travel together in life and see each other grow more close to you and evolve into ur people. be with us as school life comes along Jesus.
I praise you for this past retreat. never lord have i seen heard experienced and told of you like this. the fun that we had together and with everyone else lord will never be replaced it will be in our memories forever. God you are toooo amazing and never will you fall past 0. will you only go higher and break us and burn us with ur fire so that we will walk immune to the worlds pollution jesus.
Amen

2010

1. God will flourish even more this year and years after this one
2. school will be coo. stress wont consume me and i wont consume myself. i will maintain grades and all academia
3. my season will be a good one and i will do good. both at church and school teams. i hope i can play in the church vball and bball tourneys and have fun wasn't able to last year. yn is too competitive which is good and bad. but yeah go good baby go good
4. i get into a good college preferably my dream and that once i get there or anywhere i will do good and not slack and push strong and hard
5. my life with YOU will be great and our connection will constantly become stronger and stronger
6. my prayers will be more and ill stay focus
7. KIT with alot of folks or the important ones at least as we depart from our ways in college
8. church will be good, school will be good, family will be better
9. ill grow in faith move a few mountains here and there and t the g and get whacked up with me and my friends and go crazy
10. make 2010 good. real good
Peace and Love